Can a dick girl be a cougar? This is something I ask myself as I have sex with a guy twelve years younger than me. Please, don't do the math.
I'm at an age that demands confidence. I have a career, a kitten, an apartment. I am accomplished. In a way.
This is not what makes me a mature woman. Really, it's the clear signs of me being in my early thirties. Gray hair, deep set wrinkles, tits hanging on with desperation. Just this morning I realized I could not see anymore and that I would be blind for the next three years the doctor gave me to live. Don't feel sorry for me, I don't need your pity.
I mean, some chicks are say thirty-five. This is amazing. That's three years older than me and they still work in pronz and doesn't afraid of anything. I imagine that they have no souls.
Just have a feeling.

Most girls are like twenty. Statistics show that over 96% of trans girl models are twenty years old and what's really interesting is that they were all born on the same day at the exact same time by the same woman.
So, here I am old and my boyfriend is twenty. Being legal, I have an obligation to have sex with him. He asks nice, very mature for his age.
I feel like a "cougar" only my forties are eight years away. This must be all in my head just as me being an attractive woman.
Hormones have a lot to due with how I feel and the things I do. Say, drink heavy.
Is age a factor in dating? Do young guys like older traps? Are they perverts?
This is something I will have to find out for myself. A growing experience.

As of everybody I'm sure is aware of, considering the countless fans and guys begging to lick my body, I love horror.
Since I was like... three... I have enjoyed assaulting my mind with the most disturbing shit on earth.
I rented the second installment of Cabin Fever. So, this would be the second movie.
I watched it well over ten times in the past hour, this is just how rad it is.
I compare the movie to the ultra brutal, nerve wrecking movie, "Martyrs".
This is just as profound if not even more. Martyrs hit on sub levels of human fear while this surfaces fear that is even more sub than the sub horror I just mentioned in this sentence.
The acting is amazing, even better than say... "Saving Private Ryan". That film was bad and had no real plot to speak of so I don't recommend that one.
Like the French cult classic, "Martyrs", it pushes the limits of what the human mind can endure. Only this involves a penis.
Penis was never the subject of horror, nor fat girls having sex in a pool.
I was witness to the most meaningful movie ever made when this film graced my eyes tonight.
When it was over, I had to confront my thoughts on death but only by reflecting on my life and overcoming my fears as a human being lost in this mad world... this very, very... mad world.
Films are not made this good anymore. Film direction is weak, plot is water thin and I really think "Hostel" was ground breaking in that it illustrated a drill being put through a young mans torso about six times.
I assume that this film will go down with the greatest movies ever made.

I am often told I am truly horrid to behold. Some insults are rather terrible. Here is an example:
"You are not a trap if you look like a man right off the bat."
"Did you rly need to post that pic of you. No offense but your fucking ugly."
"Die"

Clearly, this is not good for my public image. I mean, how can I be a model if I am an ugly whore?
Funny thing is, it's really.. only online. IRL I have no probs. I go stealth (and.. I would know if I wasn't here in the hood), have an easy time at work. I mean, they know because my old manager made it a point to tell EVERYBODY.
I just don't know. Do I pass? Do I need FFS? Am I the worst example of a T girl to ever walk the earth?
..... Would you...... hit it?
I think I'm fine. I mean, I'm no ultra hot shemale with great tits and long beautiful hair....
(begins to cry)
But, hey ya know not bad for a ...
Ok, I suck but HOW BAD? That's what I want to know. On a scale of 1-10 just how fail am I? Base this on how terrible I look and how masculine I am.